And, I’m sort of back.
Well, this is one of those definitional things. Back could really mean more like Hey, I logged in again. Or back could mean Hey, I’m brimming with ideas and ready to go.
Meanwhile, check out what my friends over at Potomac Review have been up to this summer. Includes a juicy little look at Julie Wakeman-Linn’s interview from The Review Review. Julie, by the way, would be the person who brought me into the fold and I’m still sorting through slush piles nine years later!
It’s summer. Yes, I state the obvious, although hopefully not in my writing which I am off doing. I will be back in September. Hopefully full of fresh ideas and experiences.
Until then, it is the East Coast, Tin House, Mexico, words, and me.
See yawl soon!
This is my own personal fresh start, the day of the year where, away from the traditional optimism of Dec 31st, I feel the need to refresh, refocus, and take stock of my writing situation.
For the last few years I have found myself, around this time, taking stock of the year before, and planning for the summer and the year ahead. Coincidentally, this is also when the writing conferences and my yearly summer pilgrimage to the US are looming, a good time to break from the routine of the day and to step into the writing life fully, at least for a few months. It helps– both the idea that this is a refresh aligned with my own natural writing rhythm which seems to wane every spring, and the promise of a summer where most journals are closed to submissions which means no frantic watching of the deadlines as they fly by and none of my stories feel ready to be sent out.
This year, I look ahead to Kenyon and Tin house conferences, the Squire residency, and most importantly, the writer friends I cannot wait to meet. The workload is planned. The enthusiasm built. The countdown is on.
I am a sucker for satisfaction. I am not good with halves, almosts, maybes, and let’s sees. Even if it’s a “no” as in the case of the bi-monthly dose of story rejections I get, there is a certain pleasure in the definitiveness, the finality. At least, there is a conclusion. That being said, I supposed I should also admit that it is very difficult for me to deal with stories that linger for too long without an ending in sight. What kind of a sadistic son-of-a-b**** story of mine would do that to me, knowing full well that all it does is throw me into a kerfluffle–I want to drag it, by its bleeding hair, towards a finish line and I want to murder it and everyone in it.
Perhaps that is also why my novel, despite coyly hanging around, fluttering eyelashes, heaving bosom, an tarty makeup and all, gets the attention of a 12-year old boy with attention deficit from me. I just don’t know what to do with big, unfinished, things. But while we are on the subject, here is a list of other almosts that drives me insane. Sorry, irks me, I meant.
- The almost-sneeze. Yes, you know it. You have been there. This one will make me go to all ends to make myself sneeze just so I can have resolution.
- Almost throwing up.
- The half-finished sentence in the middle of a conversation. “Oh, I meant to tell you, that day….yes I would like a cheeseburger thanks. So how is that story working out? What? What was I saying? I don’t know. Can’t remember. Oh well.” Chances are, if you do this to me, I will hound you for days until you either remember what you were going to say, or come up with a satisfactory alternative.
- The music that turns off just as the riff is getting going, or just as the chorus is about to come on.
- Also, songs that sound like they are going to pick up, but just stay in that initial “tease” phase and instead of a satisfactory progression, descend into flatness.
- The idea that is so brilliant that it will never come around again, and you only manage to think the first few words of it before it disappears into the universe.
- Reading through stories that you have to say ‘No” to just because it’s almost there, but….
- Writing those stories. And knowing it.
- Almost saying hello to a fascinating stranger, but chickening out.
- Almost having the talk you meant to have with a friend, and then backing off because of the look on their face, the stone in the pit of your stomach, or your general lack of courage.
- Almost biting into that delicious looking piece of brownie, mango, or chicken wing, before it slips out of your hands and crashes on the floor.
There, that’s almost a complete list. Dammit.
I think life is sending me some sort of a message today. Along with a burst of creative energy, all sorts of feel-good, zen, vague-enough-to-sound-wise sayings have been popping up from everywhere. This one, however, relates life to one of my fav things, Improv, and deserves a share:
I, for one, have always believed in the powers of Improv.
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